Messing around.

My friend just left. We’ve been watching digimon 01 for a few hours, since I have some of the episodes in Swedish and all. To everyone who loves digimon - it’s worth learning Swedish just to watch digimon 01, 02 and the movie. They beats the japanese, english and .. well .. finnish Big Time. And this comes from a girl who doesn’t usually like dubbed movies.

I wish the digiworld would exist - it would be so wonderful.

My cat acted up last night as well .. chasing her own shadows and screaming for nothing. This place haunted so maybe it has something to do with that. Hopefully not. But she has always been .. special.

I have to get a bunch of papers in order tomorrow - or else I wont be able to pay my bills for this month. I hate living on the Soc services. I hate sending in those papers every month .. or .. last month I just skipped it cause’ I survived without their help. I just want a job.

But let’s not get all down and sob sob.
I just wished things were different, ya know ..

- I want this piggybank! But If I buy it, I wont have any money to put in it!

I want a camera.

I want a camera so bad that I’ve actually made up a plan on how I can rob a bank, take all their money - and buy a camera .. Or just, ya know, steal a camera. BUT that’s just not complicated enough!

Monday tomorrow. Hm, what to do with my life? What do I want to be when I grow up? What will my future look like? .. I’m not sure I wanna know actually. I don’t want to grow up. I mean - When do you really decide When to grow up? Do you just wake up one morning and say “Oh hey! Now I want a cup of coffee, a car, a husband, 5 kids, a house on the beach and a dog named Prince” .. If life just worked in those ways.

What is the definition of “Growing up” ? That you suddenly starts to drink red vine every day and act like those people from desperate housewives, of whatever people are watching these days, is that being successful? Did I pass? I know it comes a time when you have to take control of your life and leave the nest .. It just .. sucks, that’s all.

When did “play” disappear? And how come playing videogames is more mature then if I would ex: play with dolls? (I hate dolls Ihopetheydie) I don’t get it. I just hope I can find a job I love and get to see the world and .. NEVER get any kids. No offense - but I absolutely don’t approve of the whole - something is growing inside me - thing. :S NO!

Okey, so .. I always rambling. Typing things that doesn’t makes any sense whatsoever ~ But oh well, That’s me.

If you could take a trip to the future and meet yourself.
Would you do it?
- No, I wouldn’t.

^ w ^ © ri
Doodleeeees are FUN!

So I kinda cut my hair last night. Well .. at 4 in the morning cause I couldn’t sleep. Maybe not the best time to make decisions but it turned out okey, yey!

So I went to the store and bought haircolor. Gonna bleach this shit tonight! Not all of it, tho. Having chocolate-brown hair is nice. :3

Mjeh. Gonna go and punch someone in the face mow.
.. And when I say punch, I mean doodle and when I say someone - I mean something.

Arrrggh!



 

Said: Coco Chanel

- Gonna color my hair tomorrow. Or at least start the process.
I’m pretty excited ^w^

Hopefully everyone remembered earth hour! Or maybe it’s still in action, I dunno .. Timezones and all that.

Gonna finish off that request now and after that it’s an early night for me. Gonna drink my cinnamontea and get going! 

ta la la la…
輝きだした　僕達を誰が止めることなど出来るだろう
はばたきだした　彼達を誰に止める権利があったのだろう
よく口にしている
よく夢に見ている
よく2人語ったりしている
“シアワセになりたい”って
もう何度めになるんだろう
一体なにが欲しくて
一体何が不満で
一体どこへ向かうのとかって
聞かれても答えなんて
持ち合わせてないけどね
背中押す瞬間に
忘れないでいて
この夏こそはと
交わした約束を
輝きだした　私達ならいつか明日をつかむだろう
はばたきだした　彼女達なら光る明日を見つけるだろう
本当は期待してる
本当は疑ってる
何だって　誰だってそうでしょ
“イイヒト”って言われたって
“ドウデモイイヒト”みたい
朝焼けが眩しくて
やけに目にしみて
胸が苦しくて
少し戸惑ってた
輝きだした　僕達を誰が止めることなど出来るだろう
はばたきだした　彼達を誰に止める権利があったのだろう

What would the world be without Ayu ? <3

(Source: youtube.com)